It’s true, the snow is still falling.
Life has been busy as of late. I’m getting very worried about money, and I don’t know how to escape that stress.
Let’s talk about life.
The CEO of a professional football team slid into my DMs on LinkedIn and offered me a job. I thought it was a scam. So I phoned the number to tell whoever answered that it was a shitty scam to pull on people on LinkedIn. To my surprise, it was actually the CEO who answered. It was his cell phone number that he left in my DM and he was serious.
It’s a weird, weird world we’re living in.
For the record, there are very few things in this world that I truly can say I hate. Football is, in fact, one of those things. Also, for the record, if you legitimately want to approach someone with an offer of that type, a scammy looking LinkedIn DM is not how you do it.
Nevertheless, I digress.
I went to learn the damage of my taxes today. While there, I learned what was done on my 2020 taxes. Turns out, I still owe the government a lot of money. If I can offer a piece of advice to everyone on earth, if you’re not going to do your own taxes, pay a professional, please. Don’t “trust” friends or family members to do it, and never ever, EVER, trust someone you’re in a relationship with to do your taxes.
I’ll talk about it more one day – perhaps when my present state of debt doesn’t have such a chokehold on me.
Bills are tough.
Being an adult is tough.
Trusting people is a mistake. I don’t care how long you’ve known them. Trust yourself.
In other news, it looks like I might be moving sooner than I thought. This is worrying me because it looks like I won’t have quite as much time to save up money for the move. Money, money, money, it seems to be the majority of what I think about these days. That and why it’s still snowing.
If I do end up moving sooner, I might not get into the condo I want. Which I guess is fine, I guess. We all have to make concessions in this life. It just seems like I’ve had to make a lot of them lately, and not a lot of others have.
My day job is going really well. I feel very lucky that I was picked to be a part of this team, and so far, the experience I’ve had has been very positive. The opportunity this job has presented me is one that I’m really shocked by, and didn’t expect was coming when I was in the interview process. It’s like I thought the job was going to be something, and it turned out being something way better than what I originally imagined.
I’m still getting to know the new team, and the lay of the proverbial land, but it’s been good so far. When I started working for the start-up there were so many red flags that I looked past for the sake of the job that this time around I feel myself being hyper-vigilant about everything. With all of this hyper-vigilance, I’ve yet to find any red flags. It just seems like a good team with good jobs who work hard. As someone who’s been working since she was 13 years old (10 if you count a paper-route, which some do and some don’t), working hard during the work day and enjoying life after is something I can be on board with. No more working until 9 and 10 pm for this girl.
I just want to get back to a point where I can enjoy life again. I want to leave the trauma that’s plagued the past 6 months of my life behind. I want to leave the people who’ve disrupted the past three years of my life behind. I want to smile and have it be genuine. I want to spend time with my friends and my brothers and all of their kids. I always wanted to be ‘that crazy aunt’ and I haven’t been. I’ve been that sad person that no one knows how to help, or even talk to most days.
I’m trying to get through this. Right now it just feels like I am barely staying afloat. But at least I am still trying. That’s got to count for something.
Wow, I feel like this sounds so sad. I didn’t mean for that to happen when I sat down to write this.
If anyone reads this and you have some good news in your life or something bright that is worthy of sharing, I’d love to hear it. I might not be celebrating myself right now, but I am very much always for hearing about the good in others’ lives and celebrating their victories.