Outside the snow is falling

It’s true, the snow is still falling.

Life has been busy as of late. I’m getting very worried about money, and I don’t know how to escape that stress.

Let’s talk about life.

The CEO of a professional football team slid into my DMs on LinkedIn and offered me a job. I thought it was a scam. So I phoned the number to tell whoever answered that it was a shitty scam to pull on people on LinkedIn. To my surprise, it was actually the CEO who answered. It was his cell phone number that he left in my DM and he was serious.

It’s a weird, weird world we’re living in.

For the record, there are very few things in this world that I truly can say I hate. Football is, in fact, one of those things. Also, for the record, if you legitimately want to approach someone with an offer of that type, a scammy looking LinkedIn DM is not how you do it.

Nevertheless, I digress.

I went to learn the damage of my taxes today. While there, I learned what was done on my 2020 taxes. Turns out, I still owe the government a lot of money. If I can offer a piece of advice to everyone on earth, if you’re not going to do your own taxes, pay a professional, please. Don’t “trust” friends or family members to do it, and never ever, EVER, trust someone you’re in a relationship with to do your taxes.

I’ll talk about it more one day – perhaps when my present state of debt doesn’t have such a chokehold on me.

Bills are tough.

Being an adult is tough.

Trusting people is a mistake. I don’t care how long you’ve known them. Trust yourself.

In other news, it looks like I might be moving sooner than I thought. This is worrying me because it looks like I won’t have quite as much time to save up money for the move. Money, money, money, it seems to be the majority of what I think about these days. That and why it’s still snowing.

If I do end up moving sooner, I might not get into the condo I want. Which I guess is fine, I guess. We all have to make concessions in this life. It just seems like I’ve had to make a lot of them lately, and not a lot of others have.

My day job is going really well. I feel very lucky that I was picked to be a part of this team, and so far, the experience I’ve had has been very positive. The opportunity this job has presented me is one that I’m really shocked by, and didn’t expect was coming when I was in the interview process. It’s like I thought the job was going to be something, and it turned out being something way better than what I originally imagined.

I’m still getting to know the new team, and the lay of the proverbial land, but it’s been good so far. When I started working for the start-up there were so many red flags that I looked past for the sake of the job that this time around I feel myself being hyper-vigilant about everything. With all of this hyper-vigilance, I’ve yet to find any red flags. It just seems like a good team with good jobs who work hard. As someone who’s been working since she was 13 years old (10 if you count a paper-route, which some do and some don’t), working hard during the work day and enjoying life after is something I can be on board with. No more working until 9 and 10 pm for this girl.

I just want to get back to a point where I can enjoy life again. I want to leave the trauma that’s plagued the past 6 months of my life behind. I want to leave the people who’ve disrupted the past three years of my life behind. I want to smile and have it be genuine. I want to spend time with my friends and my brothers and all of their kids. I always wanted to be ‘that crazy aunt’ and I haven’t been. I’ve been that sad person that no one knows how to help, or even talk to most days.

I’m trying.

I’m trying to get through this. Right now it just feels like I am barely staying afloat. But at least I am still trying. That’s got to count for something.

Wow, I feel like this sounds so sad. I didn’t mean for that to happen when I sat down to write this.

If anyone reads this and you have some good news in your life or something bright that is worthy of sharing, I’d love to hear it. I might not be celebrating myself right now, but I am very much always for hearing about the good in others’ lives and celebrating their victories.

Okay, bye.

30 thoughts on “Outside the snow is falling

  1. You know how there’s parts on Canada that are in the Arctic Circle? Well, I feel like someone needs to tell your weather pattern that you’re not one of those places…
    Seriously, they’re looking at your snow and saying, “That’s a bit much!”

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    1. We’ve got a few more weeks of sporadic snowfall left… me thinks.
      Last year the last day it snowed was April 21. Good thing I’m packing my bags and moving.

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  2. Here’s a feelgood story for you. Yesterday, when my hubby and I were on our way home from running some errands, we decided to pick up tea and muffins at a well-known coffee shop. It was cold and damp and windy, hence the drive-through which ran behind several neighbouring businesses. A woman, wearing an Easter bunny hairband, handed us a dozen red roses. “Happy April Fool’s Day!” she said as she started to walk away. Then she came back and gave us a dozen white roses, to be shared with a neighbour. No strings, no lies, nothing but smiles! Keep trying!❤❤🙏

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    1. That is so incredibly sweet! I hope you displayed your flowers and that your neighbour loved theirs. Such a nice, feel-good story. Thank you for sharing.

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  3. I don’t even look at my bills. They get deducted automatically from my bank account each month. out of sight, out of mind, I say. I do make an effort to go to the bank every 2 months to see what I have in my bank account, and I check the monthly credit card bill to make sure the numbers line up. Either than that, I don’t worry about the bills. Adulting is hard, and automating things has been a game-changer for me. You are absolutely right that the only person we can trust are ourselves. Only you know yourself best!

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    1. I do have a couple of bills like that, that just come out automatically. I do feel very grateful that I am able to do that. It’s not something everyone gets to do if their finances are so tight. Sadly, this tax bill is just drowning me lately. It came out of nowhere in December and I didn’t plan for it. I wish it would just fade away. I feel like that’s pretty common for a lot of adults, especially since I’ve been watching a lot of people saying similar things on the news lately.

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      1. I feel really dumb for having to look up what a tax bill was. I think it’s property tax but I’m not sure. The taxes on the townhouse were surprisingly reasonable which was a big incentive for moving to this location. I’m sorry that all of these extra expenses have been overwhelming for you lately. Being on a tight budget because we have to, rather than by choice, would definitely be a stressor for sure.

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  4. Are you sure the football CEO is legit? I would think they would have layers of people to make that sort of contact. If it is him, you’re right. Someone needs to let him know it looks scammy.

    So glad the new job is going well. I hope you can delay that move. It is tough when money is low and unexpected expenses come up. Hopefully this will be a short-term problem and soon money will not be a worry.

    And the good in my life. I’m at the beach with some girlfriends for a few days. It’s a bit chilly, but is supposed to get warmer in a couple of days. And my alma mater just won their basketball game, so will be playing for the national championship on Monday.

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    1. It’s for a Candian team. Their head offices are much smaller than NFL, or any other professional leagues. Much, much, MUUUUCH smaller. Not even really a comparison.

      Basketball, you say? Would that be March Madness that everyone is talking about? Or something different?

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      1. Yep, that’s March Madness. If anyone asks you anything about it, tell them you are cheering for the TarHeels (Carolina). I declare you a fan. 😉

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  5. No particular good news here, but I feel your pain regarding being and adult and having to deal with tax bills! You live and you learn huh.

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  6. Bills suck! The feel good thing for me here is that you are still trying, which isn’t always easy when you’re feeling so stressed & overwhelmed, which is brilliant. You’re still posting here and you keep on going. That’s something to be proud of ❤️

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  7. I hope you feel better soon. I’ve been going through depression for quite a while so I don’t know how to cheer you up. I’ll just tell you what my dad told me yesterday “stop over-analyzing the people in your life and worrying about what they will think or say about you. Just be yourself” my response was “well, what if my self right now is a sad human being who can’t interact with other humans without going into panic mode?”. He had no answer for that.

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    1. Oh god, I feel so similar to you right now. I’m just one of those human beings who goes into panic mode immediately.

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    2. I am sorry you’re dealing with depression. It’s such a difficult thing. If it helps, I know exactly how you feel.

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  8. Me too. I HATE football! I don’t hate snow but I can see that it gets tedious for most people. Your bills…all you can do is pay what you can, when you can. As long as you don’t go running up credit cards, you will get it sorted. I have the impression that you are very responsible. So you made a mistake by trusting the wrong person….we all make mistakes. You have a good job now and will be moving…things are looking up. Be well! Glad to see your posts again.

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    1. My credit card is presently maxed out due to the lawyer fees I’ve been dealing with. I think that’s why I’m so worried. I literally feel like I’m bleeding money lately. Thank you for trying to brighten my spirits with this comment, though. I hope I become more responsible about the people I let into my life.

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  9. Um…. Seems everyone responding to this post is from the West but lemme wave from Africa.
    Okay, being from an equitorial country, temperatures here can sometimes get very extreme. In the last few weeks of Feb it just turned out to what I’ve never experienced before, 45° is not a joke you know. Someone in the memes was heard joking that “someone must be playing with the heat button”🤣🤣
    Thankfully yesterday we received some good rainfalls, it’s cool and we thank God.

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    1. Helloooooo! Most of the readers of my blog are from the USA! Africa is definitely a long way away from here where I am in Canada! That’s so funny – ‘someone playing with the heat’ ! I’ve always wanted to visit an equatorial country! Actually, one of my best friends lives in Egypt and I’ve always wanted to visit him. I know Africa is very big and vast, though! If you’re in an equatorial country, you’re probably a long ways from Egypt. Glad to hear you got some good rainfall. A little rain can do some wonders for the universe.

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